RANDOM QUESTIONS OF LOVE
i was closing down my multiply site due to personal reasons and i have found a visitor so i checked his multiply site. it caught me.. amazed i was how he battled against the risk along with his adventure and pondered, "what ifs"... "what if it happened to me", "what if i got jailed", and so on ...
then browsing along, i read: "unanswerable questions" in his previous postings, undeniably linked to it and everything is common. common but when you try to figure out everything, you find yourself, "we share the same feeling", or "we actually have something in common", of course not the "spark" you are thinking aloud right now. hahaha.. and the questions are:
you might actually agree to this as you read it. for the past 1 year i was STUCK in a relationship where i don't want to stay anymore but the emotions is too attached and you cannot just move on. you want to end because it is not working.. or should i say, it is not worth working for anymore. you keep on fighting for the person you thought really loved you, because that is what he exactly do. make you feel love all the time, give you sweet lies and self-denial is the only option for you to stay. "no, he love me. he is not cheating on me" but you end up realizing YOU are in deep shit. you wanted to get out of the relationship because it is not helping you at all. but.. at the back of your mind, I STILL LOVE him. i really love him. you gave everything and yet, why it happened?
admit it or not, thats the reality. we can actually move on if somebody will make us feel we are loved and that there is somebody who appreciates you, accept you for who you are whether you fart aloud, cry during sex, you don't eat seafoods because you're allergic, or you laugh so loud and s/he find him/herself laughing at you just because he/she thinks you're cute, or simply how you eat powdered milk. hahah, yes.. powdered milk and lick the spoon like a kid that nobody cares (i think, thats why he left me.. because i eat milk.. eh?)
that somebody? i don't know.. rebound is not the option. and taking advantage to the emotions of the lonely person is not probably the best thing to do either. you could just possibly be a friend to that someone because it is pretty obvious if you will be an uptight friend who says "i am always here for you and says negative things towards her/his lover that make her/him sad" i bet, the person you are trying to take advantage of will avoid you in no time.
and my instinct is telling me that we both agree to this. it happens to me ALL THE TIME when we just broke up and until for quite sometime now. his thoughts, his face, how he smile, you can still see him and it always bubble in your head or when you accidentally look at somebody and the next thing you see is him and you blink your eye for a sec and you realized it wasn't him at all and you started to miss the person so much that you want to text or call him just by saying "i SAW you!" and you know for yourself that you actually just want to say "I MISS YOU".. fuck. and you are down for a minute again. tears trying to fall but you keep your head looking at the sky or blink 5 times in a second..
(this gotta be crazy..i am listening to http://www.blogtv.com/people/ajRAF via steve terada's twit and they are singing "one last cry" ... hahahah) waaaaaahh!! noooooo!! i am not gonna cry!! hahaha.
sometimes, you wish you have a magic candy on your palm and eat it to transform your mood so you can forget the person making you feel sad, lonely, and misery.
i was in this stage for days.. weeks... but not months because i told myself, now that is over, i want to be beautiful again. far better when we were started. you can do this by telling yourself that you are beautiful and feel it. you gotta come out of your shell. be aware that there are a looot of people who is waiting for you.. see you moving on. and i tell you, if he/she finds out about it, he/she make you feel she/he loveeee you still and please... get over it. make yourself busy. get a life that took away from you when you are still with him/her. make fun, have fun and believe in yourself. no matter how it is, there is always a better person that will come out in you and there is always a better person that deserve you. :)
CREDIT to: http://thedriftwood.multiply.com/ for the questions i used :)
then browsing along, i read: "unanswerable questions" in his previous postings, undeniably linked to it and everything is common. common but when you try to figure out everything, you find yourself, "we share the same feeling", or "we actually have something in common", of course not the "spark" you are thinking aloud right now. hahaha.. and the questions are:
how do you stop the sadness when the only person who can stop it is the one who started it in the first place?
you might actually agree to this as you read it. for the past 1 year i was STUCK in a relationship where i don't want to stay anymore but the emotions is too attached and you cannot just move on. you want to end because it is not working.. or should i say, it is not worth working for anymore. you keep on fighting for the person you thought really loved you, because that is what he exactly do. make you feel love all the time, give you sweet lies and self-denial is the only option for you to stay. "no, he love me. he is not cheating on me" but you end up realizing YOU are in deep shit. you wanted to get out of the relationship because it is not helping you at all. but.. at the back of your mind, I STILL LOVE him. i really love him. you gave everything and yet, why it happened?
my answer: the only thing that can stop your sadness is to be loved by someone else.
admit it or not, thats the reality. we can actually move on if somebody will make us feel we are loved and that there is somebody who appreciates you, accept you for who you are whether you fart aloud, cry during sex, you don't eat seafoods because you're allergic, or you laugh so loud and s/he find him/herself laughing at you just because he/she thinks you're cute, or simply how you eat powdered milk. hahah, yes.. powdered milk and lick the spoon like a kid that nobody cares (i think, thats why he left me.. because i eat milk.. eh?)
that somebody? i don't know.. rebound is not the option. and taking advantage to the emotions of the lonely person is not probably the best thing to do either. you could just possibly be a friend to that someone because it is pretty obvious if you will be an uptight friend who says "i am always here for you and says negative things towards her/his lover that make her/him sad" i bet, the person you are trying to take advantage of will avoid you in no time.
how do you stop thinking about a certain person? i mean, the moment you tell yourself you're not going to think about that person you end up thinking about that person in the process of trying not to think of that person!! too confusing?
and my instinct is telling me that we both agree to this. it happens to me ALL THE TIME when we just broke up and until for quite sometime now. his thoughts, his face, how he smile, you can still see him and it always bubble in your head or when you accidentally look at somebody and the next thing you see is him and you blink your eye for a sec and you realized it wasn't him at all and you started to miss the person so much that you want to text or call him just by saying "i SAW you!" and you know for yourself that you actually just want to say "I MISS YOU".. fuck. and you are down for a minute again. tears trying to fall but you keep your head looking at the sky or blink 5 times in a second..
(this gotta be crazy..i am listening to http://www.blogtv.com/people/ajRAF via steve terada's twit and they are singing "one last cry" ... hahahah) waaaaaahh!! noooooo!! i am not gonna cry!! hahaha.
sometimes, you wish you have a magic candy on your palm and eat it to transform your mood so you can forget the person making you feel sad, lonely, and misery.
i was in this stage for days.. weeks... but not months because i told myself, now that is over, i want to be beautiful again. far better when we were started. you can do this by telling yourself that you are beautiful and feel it. you gotta come out of your shell. be aware that there are a looot of people who is waiting for you.. see you moving on. and i tell you, if he/she finds out about it, he/she make you feel she/he loveeee you still and please... get over it. make yourself busy. get a life that took away from you when you are still with him/her. make fun, have fun and believe in yourself. no matter how it is, there is always a better person that will come out in you and there is always a better person that deserve you. :)
CREDIT to: http://thedriftwood.multiply.com/ for the questions i used :)
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