a lot of things happened today, i don't know where to start, but i am beginning.

around 3AM nervousness is running through my veins. it is sucking in in my brain. thinking negatively, my mind is reminding me of the case -- nothing will happen.

2PM this afternoon, we arrived in Hall of Justice. we came early, preparing how to present myself. the prosecutor called out our name for first settlement, the boys are not yet around, so automatically, we will be needing a second call. they didn't arrived without notice or any representative, the settlement now moved to another date.

another settlement date again. we were inside the prosecutor's office when i received a call.

hindi daw sila nakapag raise ng fund na ayon sa napag usapang halaga.
They can't raise a fund because of the large amount offered.

if it were not on their attorney, they will not be in that situation. Their attorney offered P75,000 to settle the case and finish this off. Huh! they think i am after with the money?  What an arrogant attorney.

Hambog masyado! tumawag nga sakin tapos sinasabi na i-settle nalang ang lahat outside the legal process. walang abogado, walang fiscal, kami kami nalang. i told my mom and my atty about it. pinagalitan ako ng mom ko. duh!! hindi naman ako tanga para makipag ayos ng ganun nalang, kaya nga may legal process eh. kung nag appear nalang sila kanina, e d sana tapos ang kaso. nakapag file na sana ako ng desistance ko! punyeta! panibagong hearing date nanaman. tangina, ayoko na ng ganito eh, habang tumatagal lalo lang nagiiba takbo ng pag iisip ko. nahihirapan na ako. iba yung pressure na naidudulot sakin ng lahat ng ito. ayoko na! gusto ko na matapos tong kaso and i want to move on completely. nahihirapan na ako eh, tangina minsan gusto ko na mag suicide dahil sa pressure na rin na naibibigay ng nakapaligid sakin na mga tao. lecheng buhay to.

after ng hearing, pumunta kami ng mom ko sa office para makuha na insurance ko. meron na, nairelease na pala. katangahan ko lang, naiwan ko I.D. ko para ipresent. bobo talaga.

around 7pm, i got home, nandun na pala si Philipp, naghihintay. i asked him kung kanina pa sya naghihintay sabi nya kanina pa daw. pinagpapalit na ako ng damit and everything, i told him i want to eat. sabi ko, " gusto ko mag mcdo " sabi nya, " ok, pero beh magpalit ka muna ng damit, grabeh pawis mo " ok fine. nagpalit ako and umalis na kami. bagong setup big bike nya, nanibago ako. tumaas konti, and medyo numipis ung seat. nagrereklamo ako, " beh, ang sakit sa pwet, nabawasan ung foam " ok lang yan, kulang yan sa ano... sabi ko, " LOKO ". we decided to get home, late na eh. 9PM na.


"hindi lahat ng negatibong bagay na dumadating sa ating buhay, ay nagpapahirap at nagbibigay ng problema satin. hudyat lang ito, na minsan hikayatin natin sarili natin na umintindi ng mga bagay na hindi pabor satin. try to see things in different perspective, because not all the things you think and understand is what it really tells and compliment. and not all the good things we know, we do is always good for us."

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yesterday, i went to school to check the subjects offered this summer and see if i could advance my subjects left. when i saw the subjects offered, TARIFF 1 and CUSTOMS 1 were only posted. unfortunately, i only have 3 major subjects left and 1 mock board review that offers during second semester only.

since i have nothing to do about it, i just bought a bag. (at least, an alternative way to boost my pride?) just to give credit for myself.

i bought this bag at SM North Edsa at P600.00 A great find indeed. But if you are on a tight budget, you can purchase this in Quiapo, Manila. Similar item but with a little damages or quality unwise.

made of native craft from philippines. the texture is fine and smooth and the compartment is quite spacey, good enough if you have additional stuff other than Cellphone, wallet, coin purse and cologne. Make-up not included because you can't find it in my purse. this bag is best suit in placing it in elbow to add sophisticated look. 

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march 29, 30, and 31 was suppose to be a great weekend for me. i was suppose to be in puerto galera again. :( but unfortunately, i have to choose between SWIMMING or SUMMER CLASS. even if i miss the puerto galera fun, i still have 2 months.

and since i wasn't able to join my friends in puerto galera, ian, arvin and i planned to go to Enchanted Kingdom next week, after the holy week. Oh Thank God! if Ken will still come with us, that would be awesome! ^^ (no boyfriends allowed?)

yesterday, mom and i went for a shopping for my upcoming summer class for that! i only spend 600 pesos!! for all of these. haha. great finds in Divisoria.

not bad. i think made a good choice, although black is not advisable during summer. now i'm thinking if i should buy another flip flops like Banana Peel, Dupe (rubber flip flips like Havaianas) or Havaianas or should i go for sandals from Happy Feet ? hmmm...

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tagay pa ^^ *hik* hindi po kami lasing

one shot. and dance with me

wala lang ^^

yeah !!

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Friday na pala, ang bilis ng panahon, araw at oras. hindi ko rin namalayan alas siete (7PM) na pala. naisipan kong mag review kahit konti para sa Tariff 3 ko, computation kasi. sumagi din sa isip kong uminom, pam pagana lang pero hindi nalang, wala na akong pera eh, although may natirang gran matador nung bday ko, ayaw na rin ako painumin ni philipp dahil naging "suka queen" ako nung bday ko nung march 10. nung mag midterm exam, nagreview ako kasama ng alak; infairness masarap huh.


pero ngayon para akong tange, parang naka inom ako. hahaha, hindi naman. lecheng buhay to, bangag lang siguro ako sa problema ko. sa monday na yung hearing, kaya medyo tensionado; tuesday naman finals ko. ang saya d ba?

sa buhay ng isang estudyante hindi nawawala ung mapag isip ka kung paano ka kinabukasan, kung ano mangyayari sa'yo -- sa araw mo. minsan naisip ko, estudyante ba talaga ako? paano kasi, iisang subject nalang ang pinapasukan ko ngayong sem. 5:30-7PM pa. ang boring di ba? leche kasing schedule yan.


minsan nakaka inis mga classmate ko, tingin nila sakin labas pasok lang ng school. papasok ng walang alam, lalabas ng hindi man lang naintindihan ung lesson. kutusan ko sila eh! kung hindi lang ako huminto e d sana maganda buhay ko ngayon - nagtratrabaho. pero ang baho naman nun, trabaho agad. well good for me kasi nakapag work naman ako kahit huminto ako. yun lang ang baho din ng nilagpakan ko -- political party na jologs ang head ng department namin; ang layo pa sa course ko. minsan, kung hindi talaga para sa'yo kahit anong pilit alang nangyayari. minsan naman, nandyan na sa harap mo -- igragrab mo nalang, ayaw mo pa. ang hirap maging estudyante na masarap. parang sex, masakit pero nag eenjoy. mahirap man ung mga ginagawa, naeexplore mo naman ung sarili mo. anyway, baka kung san pa mapunta kwento ko. tagay nga! ~

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Feb 2, 2007 - Feb 3, 2007. The Celebration

My friend Ken, celebrated her birthday in a resort near our subdivision. She used to celebrate her b-day and some sort of our special occasions in that resort and because of that, we established a good relationship with the owner and staffs. My boyfriend and I arrived at pass 9PM of Feb. 2. Surprisingly, we got company. Peejay's friends – compose of boys and girls but basically we don't know them. Around 11.30Pm when we’re in the midst of our happiness, the least unexpected happened.

Peejay's friends went to a trip and threw Peejay in the pool while he was asleep (sa sobrang kalasingan). Karlo and Ken didn't liked what happened and Karlo told them that it was not funny at all. Ken kept quiet. They said sorry -- that’s how they make fun/ magbiruan with each other. Grelly whispered to Karlo "tol, pag gumalaw ka, gagalaw din ako".

When suddenly a guy went to our table and pulled Grelly's chair and threw it in the pool. Grelly pushed the guy and everything went to chaos. Everybody was trying to calm both parties. My girl friends hugged Grelly and pulled him away leading him to the corner near the pool. Surprisingly, some of the guys already pulled monoblock chairs and bottles and hit Grelly. Phillipp pushed them off and in return he got hit in the arm. I hold my bf and told him not to fight back. I was standing aback when suddenly I got hit in the head causing it to bleed and made me dizzy. My blood was running down my face, my nails were getting violet; I was starting to fall asleep. vanni trying to make me awake - "ate wag kang matutulog, ate wag kang matutulog". My blood was all over the floor, I left a blood stain in the table.

Philipp's wound

After that incident, we went to the nearest hospital and ask for medico legal assistance. ince my cut was really a concern, the Dr. informed my mom that they are going to stitch my wound.

5 STITCHES.

FEB 9, 2007. Midterm examination
I FAILED! i wasn't aware that we will be having our midterm exam (today). i know that what happened to me is not an excuse. T_T even though i don't know much and not prepared, still i took the exam. i hate taking special exams anyway.


FEB 28, 2007. First day of Hearing
We've seeked advises from different Attorneys, and they told us that their appearance is unnecessary since it is only a settlement. In short, we went to hearing without an Atty.

the moment of truth. the fiscal asked me where it happened and i answered. i thought he will ask me / us to tell the whole story but unfortunately he did not. The fiscal checked, read and investigate our medico legal and police statement.

"naguguluhan ako sa police statement mo/nyo, baguhin nyo `to, hindi ko alam kung sino sa inyong dalawa ang nagsasalita eh. ano ba to? ah joint pala." fiscal said. "yan po kasi ung ginawa ng police eh" i answered. "may chance din na mabago `tong statement mo dito sa gagawin mong bago", fiscal insist.

"eh paano ka ba napalo?" fiscal asked. "nakatalikod po" i replied. "eh base dito sa medico legal mo puro pasa lang inabot mo eh", fiscal teased. "may 5 stitches po ako sa ulo" i insist. "eh.., sa Dr. na gumawa nyan ang kausapin mo". said the fiscal. then my opponents Atty. said, "eh yung mga ganyan, usually 9-10 days lang tinatagal eh", (acted boastfully)

the fiscal said, "initial lang tong medical certificate mo, ang kailangan ko is ung permanent medical certified", then i told the fiscal i have my insurance with me, certifying my attending physician's treatment given to me. then the fiscal harshly said, "ay hindi, sa susunod mo na ipresent yan, ung mga evidences mo".

"so ok no, sa ganitong kaso kung magkakaayos kayo ngayon, ay yun ay kung magkakasundo kayo. so dapat sa inyo manggaling ung initial offer nyo (my opponents) to settle this matter" he continued.

"ay hindi, iprepresent ko muna yung evidences ko bago ako makipag settle sa kanila" i dictate.

then their Atty. acting so confident and boastfully said, "ay kung ganyan din pala, eh di magfifile kami ng counter affidavit". and i bravely answered, "OK".


MARCH 14, 2007. second day of hearing
I have my Atty. My friends were also present; like what i've said, i have all the necessary documents needed. the opponent's Atty. was not present, and also, they failed to file their counter affidavit.

My Atty. gave them another chance to file their counter affidavit and we will be having our final hearing. Oh well, sounds interesting.

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I miss my blog, T_T I miss everything, from blog hopping to reading post, trying to absorb every word I read. Been busy lately and a lot of things happened unexpectedly.

- My boyfriend and i had an on and off relationship till it came to a point that I asked him to break up with me.Yes... for a break up. He didn’t gave up. He talked to my mom and asked for her advice. I wasn’t expecting that. Then a girl called him up and he handed me his cell phone. The girl told me that my boyfriend cried a lot and got drunk. I can’t speak — should I be jealous or just listen to what the girl has to say? I thanked her for what she advised to my boyfriend and befriended her.

- Virtually, my friends ruined my name for some point and reasons. I cannot blame them if they cant distinguish the fact from opinion, whether it is negative or positive. I really pity them, especially those people who are close to me. They know who is telling the truth and who are denying. I cannot afford to point a finger on a certain person (although some instances I do), only because pointing finger will lead you nowhere — chaos. I realized after what happened, you cannot trust anybody, either virtually or in reality.

- Code name: CHINGKIT. hay, I wish I could see you again *SOB* even in just one minute. wahihi. ala lang ^_^ I met him in our guild’s eyeball during fiesta. *sigh* basta! wafu nya. haha..

until here nalang muna... ^_^

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Merry Christmas ^_^ Ambet

Dec 31, 2004

this is the first time we celebrated our noche buena, and celebrated Christmas that our family is incomplete. although my father is not present because he is far from us, my brother is the missing piece of the spirit of Christmas in our house. some of my brother's friends went to our house and greeted my brother through his picture. We really miss him a lot. He used to be the darling of the crowd, the clown of the group and the family's guest inviter. he used to invite his friends -- bunch of friends who eat together and share their laughter that please to our ears. We really miss you kuya.

Dec 31, 2004

we know that you are always there watching over us. or we never know, you are already eating and having fun with us just like what you did on your 40th day... we saw you... caught on cam.

We love you bet, Merry Christmas ... ^^ and a Happy New Year.

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ayos !! sa wakas christmas vacation na ^_^ saya saya naman... hihihi.

eto na makakahinga nanaman ako ng maluwag. oh well, ay hindi pa rin pala. hahaha kasi sa dami kong inaanak hindi pa ako nakaka bili ng regalo. dami rin activities. OMG! T__T ang hirap naman, ala na talagang pahinga.

oh well i have to enjoy the vacation ^^ hihih.


MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone ^^

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T.G.I.F.

thursday, house party!! I really miss my friends. I wasn't able to join the fun because of my fever. Well, better luck next time.

DOMINATING CUSTOMS REVIEW

3 inches and .5 inches thick books, respectively.

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i heard the news -- classes are suspended on all levels due to typhoon Reming / Durian. Though it will a long weekend for students, for people devastated by Typhoon Durian, it will be forever strategy. A lot of Filipinos died, some lost their homes and shelter,

thought i was feeling lucky -- i realized --  i was feeling guilty-moron. so stupid enough without realizing that there are lots of Filipinos who are crying for aid. helpless due to lack of facilities and means of communication. i felt really bad and sorry for the Filipinos who are helpless in times like this -- like when the Government cannot raise more funds to extend the facilities, relief goods, and shelter that every families need who are in desperate need.

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1. i do not wear make-up // except occasional.

2. i USED to like men who are tall, dark, and handsome. Medium built.
i still like tall and dark(lalakeng lalake) men, but i grew to like *BALD* (not a hair loss problem) and chubby men.

3. i used to collect Sationaries but i consumed everything to make letters for my boyfriend (THAT time)

4. i am flat footed. haha.

5. i play piano and used to play basic guitar

6. i have a curly hair.

7. i already had 8 eyeglasses and 2 of them left in a place, 1 was broken.

8. i have 1 organizer which i used during my high school days. and have 9 planners, 1 each year since 2001.

9. i don't drink milk, i eat powdered milk. wew..

10. i used to play basketball. in fact, i became part of women's basketball team back in high school. Unfortunately, all of us are WOMEN. we are not seriously into basketball game.

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i'll always love you....

I often close my eyes

And I can see you smile

You reach out for my hand

And I'm woken from my dream

Although your heart is mine

Its hollow inside

I never had your love

CHORUS

And every night

I lie awake

Thinking maybe you love me

Like I've always loved you

But how can you love me

Like I loved you when

You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 2/3

I've never felt this way

To be so in love

To have someone there

Yet feel so alone

Aren't you supposed to be

The one to wipe my tears

The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still

My reflection is there

I see you holding me

But then you disappear

All that is left of you

Is a memory

On that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

VRS 4

I don't know what hurts you

But I can feel it too

And it just hurts so much

To know that I can't do a thing

>And deep down in my heart

Somehow I just know

That no matter what

I'll always love you.

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain.

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All of us experience pain and sorrow.
All of us embrace love and happiness.
But what if the person you love is not happy to be with you anymore, only to find out she/he found it with someone else. Are you going to let go? or hold on and pretend you do know?
You keep on fighting for the one you unconditionally love,
and yet, you're fighting for nothing.

What is painful in love is people cannot be honest with themselves.
We always deny what is real and do not accept destiny bestowed us.

What is painful, is how he/she play games on you. He/She doesn't want to let you go because of his/her cruel intentions. Pretends he/she loves you, deny the truth, still lies in front of your face, and yet you can do nothing but cry alone and ask to let you go.

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I was reading recent posts of jones when I saw my name and she's tagging me. (thanks for the tag sis)

Once tagged by this entry, write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. In the end of it, pick six of your friends and tag them! No tag backs. This explanation must be included, of course.


1. I don't literally wear make-up.

2. i love coleslaw and broccoli. i love eating powdered milk, I drink 4-6 cups of coffee in a day when i am busy particularly when at work.

3. i play piano during wee hours of the morning and stop playing in the midst of its peak.

4. i have a sixth sense. i don't practice communicating with ghost or spirits or whatever you may call it. i can see future encounters in my dreams and it becomes reality in time.

5. i don't take medicines. i just meditate and pray. i can heal myself. (weird)

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I’ve been in to job haunting -- interviews and examinations. Literally, I passed my examinations and gone to initial, second interviews. I've been waiting for a couple of hours and what I get is the "we-will-call-you-this-week". This is what I really hate the most when applying for a job; they leave you hanging instead of being frank that you did not pass the interview.

I already received 2 calls early this morning and I have a final interview tomorrow. *sigh* Sometimes I don't know what to do – should I just apply for another company or wait for the call. My mind is in chaos and I don't want to miss every single opportunity in front of me. I received a text yesterday but I did not confirm for the interview because it is another endorsement again.

My mom told me that it is easy to leave your present employer but really hard to find an opportunity to land for another job. I am having a hard time explaining it to her that I cannot tolerate people who underestimated my capibilities and people who are trying to ruin my name -- i will not waste my time and effort working with those kind of people. and thats why i left my job. 

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