I miss my blog, T_T I miss everything, from blog hopping to reading post, trying to absorb every word I read. Been busy lately and a lot of things happened unexpectedly.
- My boyfriend and i had an on and off relationship till it came to a point that I asked him to break up with me.Yes... for a break up. He didn’t gave up. He talked to my mom and asked for her advice. I wasn’t expecting that. Then a girl called him up and he handed me his cell phone. The girl told me that my boyfriend cried a lot and got drunk. I can’t speak — should I be jealous or just listen to what the girl has to say? I thanked her for what she advised to my boyfriend and befriended her.
-Virtually, my friends ruined my name for some point and reasons. I cannot blame them if they cant distinguish the fact from opinion, whether it is negative or positive. I really pity them, especially those people who are close to me. They know who is telling the truth and who are denying. I cannot afford to point a finger on a certain person (although some instances I do), only because pointing finger will lead you nowhere — chaos. I realized after what happened, you cannot trust anybody, either virtually or in reality.
-Code name: CHINGKIT. hay, I wish I could see you again *SOB* even in just one minute. wahihi. ala lang ^_^ I met him in our guild’s eyeball during fiesta. *sigh* basta! wafu nya. haha..
this is the first time we celebrated our noche buena, and celebrated Christmas that our family is incomplete. although my father is not present because he is far from us, my brother is the missing piece of the spirit of Christmas in our house. some of my brother's friends went to our house and greeted my brother through his picture. We really miss him a lot. He used to be the darling of the crowd, the clown of the group and the family's guest inviter. he used to invite his friends -- bunch of friends who eat together and share their laughter that please to our ears. We really miss you kuya.
Dec 31, 2004
we know that you are always there watching over us. or we never know, you are already eating and having fun with us just like what you did on your 40th day... we saw you... caught on cam.
We love you bet, Merry Christmas ... ^^ and a Happy New Year.
ayos !! sa wakas christmas vacation na ^_^ saya saya naman... hihihi.
eto na makakahinga nanaman ako ng maluwag. oh well, ay hindi pa rin pala. hahaha kasi sa dami kong inaanak hindi pa ako nakaka bili ng regalo. dami rin activities. OMG! T__T ang hirap naman, ala na talagang pahinga.
i heard the news -- classes are suspended on all levels due to typhoon Reming / Durian. Though it will a long weekend for students, for people devastated by Typhoon Durian, it will be forever strategy. A lot of Filipinos died, some lost their homes and shelter,
thought i was feeling lucky -- i realized -- i was feeling guilty-moron. so stupid enough without realizing that there are lots of Filipinos who are crying for aid. helpless due to lack of facilities and means of communication. i felt really bad and sorry for the Filipinos who are helpless in times like this -- like when the Government cannot raise more funds to extend the facilities, relief goods, and shelter that every families need who are in desperate need.
2. i USED to like men who are tall, dark, and handsome. Medium built.
i still like tall and dark(lalakeng lalake) men, but i grew to like *BALD* (not a hair loss problem) and chubby men.
3. i used to collect Sationaries but i consumed everything to make letters for my boyfriend (THAT time)
4. i am flat footed. haha.
5. i play piano and used to play basic guitar
6. i have a curly hair.
7. i already had 8 eyeglasses and 2 of them left in a place, 1 was broken.
8. i have 1 organizer which i used during my high school days. and have 9 planners, 1 each year since 2001.
9. i don't drink milk, i eat powdered milk. wew..
10. i used to play basketball. in fact, i became part of women's basketball team back in high school. Unfortunately, all of us are WOMEN. we are not seriously into basketball game.
All of us experience pain and sorrow.
All of us embrace love and happiness.
But what if the person you love is not happy to be with you anymore, only to find out she/he found it with someone else. Are you going to let go? or hold on and pretend you do know?
You keep on fighting for the one you unconditionally love,
and yet, you're fighting for nothing.
What is painful in love is people cannot be honest with themselves.
We always deny what is real and do not accept destiny bestowed us.
What is painful, is how he/she play games on you. He/She doesn't want to let you go because of his/her cruel intentions. Pretends he/she loves you, deny the truth, still lies in front of your face, and yet you can do nothing but cry alone and ask to let you go.
I was reading recent posts of jones when I saw my name and she's tagging me. (thanks for the tag sis) Once tagged by this entry, write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. In the end of it, pick six of your friends and tag them! No tag backs. This explanation must be included, of course.
1. I don't literally wear make-up.
2. i love coleslaw and broccoli. i love eating powdered milk, I drink 4-6 cups of coffee in a day when i am busy particularly when at work.
3. i play piano during wee hours of the morning and stop playing in the midst of its peak.
4. i have a sixth sense. i don't practice communicating with ghost or spirits or whatever you may call it. i can see future encounters in my dreams and it becomes reality in time.
5. i don't take medicines. i just meditate and pray. i can heal myself. (weird)
I’ve been in to job haunting -- interviews and examinations. Literally, I passed my examinations and gone to initial, second interviews. I've been waiting for a couple of hours and what I get is the "we-will-call-you-this-week". This is what I really hate the most when applying for a job; they leave you hanging instead of being frank that you did not pass the interview.
I already received 2 calls early this morning and I have a final interview tomorrow. *sigh* Sometimes I don't know what to do – should I just apply for another company or wait for the call. My mind is in chaos and I don't want to miss every single opportunity in front of me. I received a text yesterday but I did not confirm for the interview because it is another endorsement again.
My mom told me that it is easy to leave your present employer but really hard to find an opportunity to land for another job. I am having a hard time explaining it to her that I cannot tolerate people who underestimated my capibilities and people who are trying to ruin my name -- i will not waste my time and effort working with those kind of people. and thats why i left my job.
TIME 7-8PM: i called romeo and i asked him kung magkasama ba kayo or if you see each other, sabi nya malimit. OK fine, kaya ka daw hindi nagpaparamdam kasi may tampo ka? pero nung sinabi nya nagchange sim ka (ano sabi mo sakin number un ng mom mo?) kasi may tampo ka sakin dahil nasaktan ka raw sa sinabi ko na "eto nasasanay ng wala ka..". bakit hindi ba totoo? lagi mo naman sinasabi na MAY TAMPO ako d ba? at alam mo sa sarili mo yan, alam mo landline ko pero hindi ka tumatawag at ang dahilan mo malayo ung phonebooth sa inyo. fcuk naman.... manhid ka ba? alam mo rin health condition ko pero balewala sayo and you just keep on asking me kung kumain na ba ako? or siguro kahit nasa hospital na ako baka balewala pa rin sayo?
AFTER 2 MONTHS, nagbirthday lang ako nitong march.. matapos un hindi ka na nagpaparamdam, then comes JUNE nagpakita ka sakin para mag SORRY? and you are telling/asking me na "ganun ba kalaki kasalanan ko? naglalambing ka pa???" damn!! ano ba ako sayo? gf mo ko at hindi barkada na kung kelan mo maisipan mo lang kakamustahin at kausapin. tapos alam mong nawala kuya ko, ni comfort ata wala akong naramdaman sayo. tapos ikaw pa may ganang magtampo? imbis na ini-intindi mo mga nangyayari sa family eto pa nakukuha ko?... nasan ka ba? lagi ka nag sasabi babawi ka sa mga pagkukulang mo pero ano ba ginagawa mo? we go out pag nagpupunta ka dito sa house or dinadaan mo sa material na bagay para ano, para masabing napasaya mo ko? to be honest with you, i ain't happy with that. hindi sa lahat ng oras pera ang kailangan ipangtapat sa atensyon na kailangan ng gf mo.
oo matagal na akong nakikipagbreak sayo and you keep on ignoring it, sabi ko mag usap tayo pero ano, dinadaan mo sa pagsosorry and bati na tayo? sabi mo bakit ako ganito? bakit nga ba? wala bang dahilan para magka ganito ako? damn!! cris, this is not a fcuking friendship game, this is all about us. you can tell it to my face that you don't want to see me anymore or it's over -- IT IS SO FCUKING FINE WITH ME. sana sa ganun nalang eh, hindi ung AKO PA PINAPALABAS MO NA LAHAT KASALANAN KO. wow ... tsk tsk tsk.
lahat ng bagay pinag seselosan mo, ultimo mga barkada ko pinagseselosan mo? at pag lalake kausap ko nagdudududa ka kagad? wow... lahat ng ginagawa ko dapat alam mo tapos ano, magagalit at magrereact ka kagad sa simpleng bagay??? tapos ako, konting mali mo dapat intinidihin kita kasi hindi mo sinasadya? na dapat bati agad para hindi na lumala? ayos ha... at pag tumatawag ako mas naiinis ka pa kasi tinatawagan kita hindi mo ko marinig kasi maingay? fcuk, ang swerte mo at nagpaka tanga ako at nagchaga ako sa ugali mo. Alam ba yan nila romeo para masabing mali at malaki ang pagkukulang ko sa pang iintindi ko sayo??? ikaw na tinawagan ikaw pa magagalit? pagsabihan ka lang konti tapos sermon agad ginagawa ko?
siguro pasalamat nalang din ako dahil hindi na mangyayari ulit to. tutal tapos na. (para sa akin at wala na dapat pagusapan) salamat sa lahat. good luck sayo and sa family mo. thank you sa memories...
Ragnarok, a massively multi player online roll playing game. Ragnarok started it all. This is the first ever online game played all over the world originated from Korea. I started playing this game when we offered it in our Internet Gaming Cafe back in between 2003 and 2004. I have to play this game in order to assist customers who are newbies in our shop.
You need to level up to gain experience and increase your skills. you can use BOT programs so will no longer work hard to reach higher levels. And there is also manual playing where you could gain more friends in a party leveling, some players became couples because of this game.
Zenny serves as the circulated money in game. players can buy millions of zenny who sells zenny in game.
There are lots of reasons why girls play this game, i myself, i love collecting headgears and pets. And the battle among players and monsters.
Collecting headgears.
Collecting Pets
killing boss
Ragnarok is a strategy game for war enthusiast players. Siege is where guilds battle for emperium and castle. They have to defend the Agit for the purpose of God item ingredient to form a Godlike item. Each defended agits equates to economy. The higher the economy of the agit or castle, the more rare items they will acquire and the God ingredient.
Aside from Siege, player 2 player is also encouraged. each player has the capacity to upgrade their weapons and shields to become more stronger.
finally! i made it! i gave myself a deadline and now im beating it again. Weee~ i love my new layout (thx to mela) so simple and i used macromedia dreamweaver to support the codes. and now i'm sleepy. i miss my bed T__T can't wait to rest. -- i need a COFFEE! oh geez! *wake up* *wake up*
accomplishments: - new layout for my blog. - updated 3 of my blogs - reborn *sweat* - new blog for my late brother (a tribute and a gift for his upcoming birthday) although im thinking of making a website -- yeah i know i'm killing myself now. *heh*
pending: - late bro's movie -- souvenir for his 40 days & 25th birthday. - distribute thank you card (some were already distributed) - burn dvd/vcd souvenir cd
next week: - add literary section ^_^ - new blog for older brother *sweat* - organize bro's 40 days.
Your Kindness has brightened these dark days and brought us comfort.
With grateful heart we remember your kind expression of sympathy and tribute to the man who will always be the light of our lives
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