i've been feeling sick since last night and now my throat is aching. hence my mom was using the computer when i decided to bump in and because she went downstairs. so i logged in to my facebook... then i saw new message.. 

OMGG!! it was FROM STEVE!! and i was only 10minutes ago so checked the site and became a fan. 

i noticed that steve terada was answering some of the comments..  ive been scrolling up and down to check the time. so i tried to post 1. ..  

haha, actually i deleted my previous comment and changed it to that message. ^

then i tried to ask him again... then he was actually replying!! OMGG!!! hahaha

i shouted it out loud to my Facebook ahah and twit is ASAP =) =)) 

SOOOO HAPPPPY!!!!!!! today =) hahah 

now i already have a gift for myself. haha 

ON BREAK. // another 24hours to be awake =)

Coffee is a LIQUOR >> been restless week for the mean time. i need to shuffle down my virtual activities. but it is safe to say i am ok. haha. i hope so... for the record, i only have 2 - 4 hours of sleep everyday since last week. i'm like this whenever i butt myself to work on something essential. i think i already doze myself off 1 liter of COFFEE just for this week. sometimes it is tasteless, sometimes strong, sometimes too sweet but it doesn't matter. i also bought 6 PACK of CORN BITS Supreme (biggest size).. of course i shared it with my mom and my bro. >__< i'm not greedy haha.


BANANA Music >> i just realized that i am already left behind for music. haha, my playlist has not been updated for 3months! my goosh! who would have thought! i am always up myself for a twit but not to twist my playlist. ggeez!


UPDATE in a CAVE >> i was surprised that charice is a featured artist of Iyaz in the song "PYRAMID". i downloaded it just today and it is topping up my ear for now. hahaha. noticeably charice has improved a lot. before, i used to hear  SHOUT when hitting higher notes.. (FYI: luckily i am a pianist, somehow i can relate) but now, it is far better. i guess, just by listening, (if you are an observant) you would notice the difference.


BLUR CAPSULE >> and today i learned that my eyes are beginning to blur my sight (AGAIN) guess this is perhaps due to stress. hays.. i wish i could get enough rest next week.

somebody give me a EYE MO.o -- make sense? >_< ahaha

EMERGENCY REUNION!!>> i was talking to my friend Jhovy.....

(she was about to go to Singapore this March when i found out she is no longer leaving. and i told her my plans of leaving the country also. she agreed to come with me but she has a lot of commitments this year so it might materialized in the next few years. we will going to visit our God child =) weeeee!!~ Looking forward to a Reunion ^^ )

.....when i felt something weird inside my stomach while we were having fun. Ate Donna and Cherry couldn't do help but laughing at Us, the laughs are inevitable. when we left Jhovy, they told me, "you guys are funny!", the rest is history... waaaaaaahh!! hahaha, i want to gooo hommee!! Ate Donna wanted to eat but i just couldn't. hahaha, i told her i need to go hoooommme!!! then i went home. LOL! hahaha. your guess is right. haha. Poop. (X.x)


HOLY WEEK >> we are going to Mt. BANAHAW :) Me, my Mom and my bro ^^ weeeee!! i'm sooo excited =) My Mom and I had a bet that she will not get in to the Cave because of small pass through. i was teasing her so bad =)) that she's just laughing at me. told her i will leave her outside the cave and tongue out =P (hahaha wat a bully!) hell what, she was scaring me out >_< that i will get lost in the cave because of "MGA ASWANG" inside. ahaha.


Black Coffee >> after this week, i am going to feed my blog with my penned reviews and stuffs i wrote in my black journal. =) i just want to share something worth reading =)


i love this life =)

since i am already talking about the post-break up and the like in my previous entry, i want to share some of my LSS (last song syndrome) songs during my emotional moments. haha.. and i tell you, these are my FAVORITE :) everything here is totally RANDOM. i don't know if some of the songs are listed in my playlist but here is my mixpod playlist. 

http://www.mixpod.com/playlist/43557373

What's hurt the most - Rascal Flatts

Gravity - Sarah Bareilles

Between the lines - Sarah Bareilles

Empty frames - Ne-yo

A little Space - Ne-yo

She Won't understand - Typecast (Filipino Rock band)

the fight is over - urbandub (Fil. Rock band)

i thought she knew - Nsync

better not together - Justine Timberlake

Hanggang Ngayon - Kyla

Broken - Seether ft. Amy Lee

Say Goodbye - Chris Brown

its you - Ne-yo

Kiss the rain - Hienie Dao

Kulang na Kulang - Joy and Bevz

What's a man to do - Usher

Separated - Usher

Kismet - Silent Sanctuary

Hiling - Paramita

Listen - Stonefree

She's out of my life - M. Jackson

How do you heal a broken heart? - I forgot the ARTIST.

let me be the one - jimmy bondoc

what do i do - jisun (watch boys over flowers to be related to the song)

Starlight tears - Kim Yoo Kyung (watch boys over flowers to relate yourself)

Broken - Secondhand Serenade

and there are still a lot of good songs out in my repertoire hahaha but those are like not too heavy to cry on =P haha, those are for "so-funny-that-i-could-not-imagine-how-i-cried-much-for-you" attitude :) short for REVENGE and FREE SPIRIT.

:))

i was closing down my multiply site due to personal reasons and i have found a visitor so i checked his multiply site. it caught me.. amazed i was how he battled against the risk along with his adventure and pondered, "what ifs"... "what if it happened to me", "what if i got jailed", and so on ...


then browsing along, i read: "unanswerable questions" in his previous postings, undeniably linked to it and everything is common. common but when you try to figure out everything, you find yourself, "we share the same feeling", or "we actually have something in common", of course not the "spark" you are thinking aloud right now. hahaha.. and the questions are: 

how do you stop the sadness when the only person who can stop it is the one who started it in the first place?

you might actually agree to this as you read it. for the past 1 year i was STUCK in a relationship where i don't want to stay anymore but the emotions is too attached and you cannot just move on. you want to end because it is not working.. or should i say, it is not worth working for anymore. you keep on fighting for the person you thought really loved you, because that is what he exactly do. make you feel love all the time, give you sweet lies and self-denial is the only option for you to stay. "no, he love me. he is not cheating on me" but you end up realizing YOU are in deep shit. you wanted to get out of the relationship because it is not helping you at all. but.. at the back of your mind, I STILL LOVE him. i really love him. you gave everything and yet, why it happened? 

my answer: the only thing that can stop your sadness is to be loved by someone else. 

admit it or not, thats the reality. we can actually move on if somebody will make us feel we are loved and that there is somebody who appreciates you, accept you for who you are whether you fart aloud, cry during sex, you don't eat seafoods because you're allergic, or you laugh so loud and s/he find him/herself laughing at you just because he/she thinks you're cute, or simply how you eat powdered milk. hahah, yes.. powdered milk and lick the spoon like a kid that nobody cares (i think, thats why he left me.. because i eat milk.. eh?) 


that somebody? i don't know.. rebound is not the option. and taking advantage to the emotions of the lonely person is not probably the best thing to do either. you could just possibly be a friend to that someone because it is pretty obvious if you will be an uptight friend who says "i am always here for you and says negative things towards her/his lover that make her/him sad" i bet, the person you are trying to take advantage of will avoid you in no time. 

how do you stop thinking about a certain person? i mean, the moment you tell yourself you're not going to think about that person you end up thinking about that person in the process of trying not to think of that  person!! too confusing?

and my instinct is telling me that we both agree to this. it happens to me ALL THE TIME when we just broke up and until for quite sometime now. his thoughts, his face, how he smile, you can still see him and it always bubble in your head or when you accidentally look at somebody and the next thing you see is him and you blink your eye for a sec and you realized it wasn't him at all and you started to miss the person so much that you want to text or call him just by saying "i SAW you!" and you know for yourself that you actually just  want to say "I MISS YOU".. fuck. and you are down for a minute again. tears trying to fall but you keep your head looking at the sky or blink 5 times in a second.. 


(this gotta be crazy..i am listening to http://www.blogtv.com/people/ajRAF via steve terada's twit and they are singing "one last cry" ... hahahah) waaaaaahh!! noooooo!! i am not gonna cry!! hahaha.



sometimes, you wish you have a magic candy on your palm and eat it to transform your mood so you can forget the person making you feel sad, lonely, and misery. 



i was in this stage for days.. weeks... but not months because i told myself, now that is over, i want to be beautiful again. far better when we were started. you can do this by telling yourself that you are beautiful and feel it. you gotta come out of your shell. be aware that there are a looot of people who is waiting for you.. see you moving on. and i tell you, if he/she finds out about it, he/she make you feel she/he loveeee you still and please... get over it. make yourself busy. get a life that took away from you when you are still with him/her. make fun, have fun and believe in yourself. no matter how it is, there is always a better person that will come out in you and there is always a better person that deserve you. :) 






CREDIT to: http://thedriftwood.multiply.com/ for the questions i used :)

HALO-HALO FIESTA: yes..2!~  my mom was craving for a halo-halo and asked me to call CHOWKING for a delivery. and it took me, 20MINS to do it >__<... i have to SEARCH! yes.. SEARCH for a nearest branch because i've read lots of negative feedback about the loooong took for them to eat their ordered food. *sweat* 

LOOOVE IT~ sllurp! 

HeLLo  "CHiiE.tk" 

after a couple of years of searching...finally... i already have it. i got it!

this is my Gift for myself :) 

now, atleast... i can say i have my own.. :) either way.... hehehe...

i am soooooooooo blessed today  ^^  

PANTY ON SUGAR: i'm on a break. got tired of computing taxes. no... not literally. i'm computing Philippine Excise taxes. haha. . 

Motor Vehicles, Wines/Liquor, the Petroleum and luxurious importations... 

FOB + insurance (4% of FOB if no insurance indicated) + Freight = Dutiable Value in $. then convert to Peso (DV $ x exchange rate) = Dutiable Value in Peso x Rate of Duty (you will classify your item in a 3 inches thick book) = Customs Duty.  hahaha. . then you have DV Peso + CUD + Misc Exp = Total Landed Cost + Ad Val Tax = Vat Base x 12% = VAT. 

MAS`H POTA`TO (wahah, just kidding): so hows that?...right! anyway... thats my working table right now. kinda messy.. >_<  who cares anyway. 

thank you to all of my sponsors: Violet.. i mean PURPLE (questcrew!!~) and green clear book for my materials. Stabilo boss' green, yellow and pinkorange (whatda??) and blue fineliner. iPhone (weh?haha), Metal Puncher, dad's glass ashtray, Casio FX-880P Personal Computer  -- Calculator (yes! it is.. haha) Index Card (CUE CARD), MAPED sharpener, Pilot super grip retractable ballpen (i swear, you'll love this pen, try it), Pilot signpen, MonAmi Finepoint PENs (permanent), *THIS ISN'T OBVIOUS i have nothing to say. ahahaha. i'm in deep shit.. the last time i check, i've been away in my bed for about 30hours now. and she is haunting me now. . 

kumi's idiot board: trash. (period) 

POSTED MEMO: there's MEXICALI... haha if you love burritos, and tacos, you definitely have to taste theirs... DELIVERY #: (02) 332-4365 *available in Manila,Philippines..(MEXICALI MUST pay me FREE burritos for this) Electric and Internet billing statements.. "FULL SCAN" memo for my virus-immune pc. windows SERIAL"... eh?? (sssshhut up bitch!) my bro's Violation slip.. haha.. and the whatevers. 

MOCK BOARD: we are talking about TARIFF LAWS here. LAWS = COMPUTATION + By Laws + ASEAN HARMONIZED TARIFF NOMENCLATURE(AHTN).. what'??? hahah... it is part of the PHILIPPINE LAW :) its in TAXATION if you are practicing Law. taxation covers CUSTOMS and TARIFF LAWS if you want to be a CUSTOMS BROKER :) yes. INDEED. haha 

30HOURS AWAKES: im soooo zombie now >__< hahaha ... of course, i won't show up O.O  x_X  -_-  X.o .... i need a coffee T_T 

i mean ice cream. lol. 

FUCK SELECTA for this .. really.. THE COOKIES ARE NOT WELL CRUSHED. we were eating the cookies IN HALF of its SIZE. i think my mom had a WHOLE COOKIE in her ice cream. damn.. you can even see it in pic.. my brother should have ordered Double Dutch instead. grrr~ 

YAAADAA~ gooodnight ^^.. (what!??) :)  .. zzzzZZZZ 

i was not about to be online today but my guilt conscience have won over my instinct. though i promised  myself not to.. i checked my twitter and facebook since those are the only activities i splurge into nowadays aside from youtube tutorials.

since i already came late to say my thank yous to people who greeted me via facebook, i intently spammed tweets and something caught my attention. . a NEW MESSAGE. . hmmm, not another spam invites.. eh??.. hence, it was not. it says:

i was wondering, who is this person. i know i know i have a lot of issues hahaha, but this..? is this person is my former lover? weww... ahhaha, anyway, a lover, a bestfriend?, my mentor?, a friend? or a perfect stranger. .i was thinking of "QUEST CREW" hahaha,.

really, the message is hunting my stupid brain until now. i mean, with these words....??

don't worry you won't hear from me anymore not unless destiny permits.... i care for you too much... i don't wanna cause you any trouble from now on... just want you to be happy..

man, i am telling you, i have NOOOO IDEA AT ALL. hahaha. . somebody cares for me huh i thought nobody does except my family. wooooo. . CREEPPYY~  CHEESSY~ hahaha,

waaaaaaa i NEED COFFEE! haha. . but whoever you are,
dude, thank you sooo much :) i really appreciate it. . soo much...

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moving on......damn, march 11, 2010, was dope. i bought CORN BITS SUPREME. *i'll post the pictures later on.. . my NEW OBSESSION :P haha . .

since its my birthday, i made this today :D nothing special though, just want to do something out of my stupid idle mind haha. .

update: i am making my pilot movie, this time i am going to upload it. i already made movies before but  wasn't able to upload them because it was just for fun back in 2006 and 2007.

hoping to polish this today :) walllah~

laters~ ^^